working for a startup

two things happened today.
1. I re-learned startups are like giant vortex, they just suck you in. I went into work today to run a conference call. I planned to be there for no more than two hours, and ended up spending the whole day there.

2. Leadership. I think sometimes I am too afraid to exercise my power, and take responsibility for decisions I take. I tried to run a decision process the IMD way by making it a group effort, then taking the decision democratically. It didn't work. No one was happy with then end result, and everyone ended up talking to me at 9pm, asking me to withdraw the group decision and take the decision I wanted in the first place. I need to start making decision and taking responsibility
for them.

Work...... I wonder what working again will be like, and pray that I will remember everything I learned at IMD even after 10 years working.